I'm an SVB employee who lost more than $1 million. Here's the inside story of our struggle to survive.

• An anonymous Silicon Valley Bank employee gave Insider a firsthand view of the bank's collapse.
• The intensity meant two or three hours of sleep each night. Some workers forgot to eat.
• Rank-and-file employees felt that management did a "dismal" job of keeping them in the loop.

Over the last two weeks, Insider has conducted a series of interviews with an employee of Silicon Valley Bank who gave a firsthand account of the bank's March 10 implosion as experienced by rank-and-file staff. Their identity is known to Insider, which agreed to keep them anonymous due to the sensitivity of client relationships. Their account has been edited for length and clarity.