I got laid off from Amazon. They've tried 4 times to rehire me, but I can't go back.

• A business analyst at Amazon was laid off as part of job cuts in January.
• About a month later, the worker got the first of four inquiries about going back to the company.
• "I didn't want to go back because I just lost trust in them," the worker told Insider.

This as-told-to essay is based on a conversation with a former Amazon business analyst laid off in January as part of job cuts that hit 18,000 workers. Though this person was granted anonymity, their identity is known to Insider. The conversation has been edited for length and clarity.